Waiting for the right time

How should I start?
And what are the words?
That is nice to be reminisced,

Every face has its own story,
Every poem full of love,
Where is my inspiration?

Light from your eyes,
Smile from your lips,
Draws thousands of questions,

May be you are…..
Lonely,
At this very moment when I am alone,

Pages of letters,
Lying in front of me,
Can’t be sent….

I crumpled it all,
And I threw it away,
Far from my sight,

Suddenly I felt regret,
I collected them back,
I could not tell how I feel,

May be if you know,
How my heart feels,
Will you accept my proposal,

Please listen,
To my appeal,
And this song that dedicated for her,

To the blowing winds,
Please convey the message,
All my thoughts which is exclusively for her,

May be there will be a time
In a beautiful day,
When I offer you my hand,
You will accept it wholeheartedly…….

Not Sure What Is Going ON.......

I always had my life direction very clear.....
I know what should be done, where to do it, when to do it, how to do it, to whom I should do it and the most important thing I know why..........
Lately I was totally confused....
I kept asking myself..... why????
Few factors that changed my direction lately, among those were:
Environment
Circles of friends
Support from family
Financial condition
and I guess the major one was.... I kept a distance from frequenting the surau!!!!

Let's talk about frequenting the surau....
I did not say that I did not go at all...
I just feel lazy when ever the muazzin calls the azan,
Eventhough I still go, but still deep inside my heart I feel very lazy!!!
Not like before I always frequent to go to the surau with full enthusiasm!!!

Now, after a lots and lots of stupid things I had done......
I pray to Allah to forgive me and guide me to the right path!!!
It is my fault and I am responsible..
I will never blame other individuals for it... It is ME who is wrong!!!!

Ooooo Allah, please forgive my sin and shower your mercy upon me,
if you do not, I am the lost ones!!!!

My First Day

They said everything has first time. I do not know why do I need to have a blog of my own!! I guess it is the trend now days kot!!! Well, I intend to use this blog as a medium to express my self. That's it for now for my first day, my first blog and my first writting.